This is Hard

A heart transplant is no joke. Today is 9 weeks since my surgery and I’m still too weak to be on my own. I’ve been out of the hospital for only 3 of those 9 weeks and before the surgery I spent 14 days waiting. So in 9 weeks I’ve been hospitalized 3 times for various things and now, in week 8 and a half I got a cold, so I’m stuck in my apartment with a runny nose and a cough, so much fun. Thankfully blood tests have shown I don’t have anything serious.

I’m tired, shaky (tremors), medicated to the max, weak, and trying to fight my way back the best I can. More than anything I’m BORED and not always in the best mood. We can blame the steroids on the weepy mood swings and sharp attitude. 

Cardiac Rehab is 3 times a week, Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I’m able to get thru it most days but some are much harder than others. Once I lost all the water weight I gained over 2 years I realized I had no muscle mass left, so building up the muscle in my legs has been a challenge. We’ve started working on my arms and just 3lb weights are kicking my butt!

The hardest part of all of this are the heart caths and waiting for blood test results and heart biopsies. I’ve had two biopsies come back with minor cellular rejection; nothing out of the ordinary. Especially since they are still tweaking my meds. I have also had biopsies with no rejection so that’s good! In the grand scheme of things that can go wrong, rejection isn’t at the top of the list. All of my other organs working properly can be much more dangerous. Like my pancreas, kidneys, liver, lungs etc. My pancreas finally kicked in and is managing my blood sugar properly, my kidneys were in trouble for awhile and they are finally rebounding, and thankfully my liver and lungs haven’t given me any issues. 

And my heart, it beats perfect, looks perfect, and the only reason I have some minor rejection is because they aren’t fully immunosuppressing me yet, but that is all part of tweaking my meds to get them just right. 

So, it’s hard, but I’ve come this far, I have confidence I can make my way back to being healthy again. 

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