Apprehensive

After having so many health issues over the last 6+ years I’ve become a bit apprehensive when it comes to seeking out medical treatment when maybe I should. Right now I’m sitting here, no doubt, in denial, that the pain I’ve had in my upper left abdomen will go away if I ignore it long enough. The fact is, it’s getting worse and starting to radiate toward the right side of my abdomen and around to my back. I’d like to tell myself it’s just a pulled muscle or something, but I know it’s not. Who knows what it is, all I know is the thought of having to go to my local hospital scares me to death.

Out here in Wyoming our medical options are limited, not to mention my issues are way above the pay grade of the doctors around here, and I really don’t want to make a trip to Utah to see my transplant team right now.

What I’d like is to have a single day where I’m pain free. Fighting Amyloidosis and then getting a heart transplant doesn’t come without a little discomfort, but my pain threshold is starting to wane. With that my mood isn’t the greatest and is probably bordering on depression. I feel like I need a break…

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